Sunday, October 12

> what a week..

The past week had been...wooaahh

My emotions took another rollercoaster ride, this time with more turns and steeper slopes but im glad its over. Challenges doesnt take forever, for the only constant is change.

I think im learning slowly, and taking it with more guts and open arms. Breathing never felt so calm and easy. Im glad i sort it out, thought it over and am embracing it with a more matured mindset. Dont wanna be a spoilt brat no more, thinking that i could have everything i ever wanted. This is the real world we're living in. Greed, dishonesty, selfishness and scams - face it, this is life.

And no, im not making it sound emo again. It lightens me up pretty much to put things away from my crazy mind, and to live my days with a smile on my face.

As long as you're happy, i'm happy, we're all good. And i dont wanna spoil the good moments by thinking negatively and thinking too much, too far.

Note to self: Gotta be more generous and be more selfless. Giving is a trait, no?

I figured that things would turn out better if i stop giving myself so much pressure. So nope, no more pressurizing, be it to you or to me. I'm sure one day, just one day, things would work out right.

Aahh...life feels so good when you get em back together again.

Then again, im quite depressed by something i just got to know. How temptations caused people to change, to break their vows of "i would never.." Sad isnt it? Then again, this is life, this is the wonders of growing up. Face it - you have no other options.

And to someone who i recently started to care about, hang on there..pick up those fragments of life you've shattered. You've been a great help to me during my dark moments, you showed me the light - my light. Im sorry i couldnt show you yours, maybe not yet but i'll keep trying until you pick yourself up and feel like me. My distractions, you dont have to fight it all alone, cos you've got me..a shoulder to cry on, a ear to hear your woes, a smile to make your day. You'll be fine, trust me. We're both taurus, and taurians dont die so easily. Be the big man i know, be the big man again and im sure you know who you are.

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